I donвЂ™t know that I was disappointed, I was blown back by the fact that I won. Were you disappointed that you missed it? And also, back at that time, the younger me didnвЂ™t really feel like a show like that would understand me.Д«ut then when I found out I won, вЂњThatвЂ™s crazy!вЂќ That to me shows how authentic and real that award is - when you donвЂ™t show up and you still win. Back then, I never even thought that I had a chance to win, and we had just performed вЂњLose YourselfвЂќ on the Grammys with the Roots a couple of weeks before the Oscars, so we didnвЂ™t think it was a good idea. I kinda figured maybe since I didnвЂ™t get a chance to do it at the time, maybe it would be cool. Last nightвЂ™s performance certainly was a surprise - how did it all come together, and why this year? His last two albums, last monthвЂ™s вЂњMusic to Be Murdered ByвЂќ and 2018вЂ™s вЂњKamikaze,вЂќ were both surprise releases, and last nightвЂ™s appearance was a tightly kept secret: Sources say the Dolby Theater was put on lockdown during rehearsals, and that if news leaked to the media, he had the option to cancel.Д«ut it all came off without a hitch, and Eminem got on the phone with Variety this afternoon to talk about how it came together, why he decided not to attend the ceremony in 2003 - and what he was actually doing that night 17 years ago. Eminem (real name: Marshall Mathers) has made a habit out of surprises in recent years.

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